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If I'm being honest

If I'm being honest, I'll tell you the last two weeks have been HARD. I made poor decisions, I slacked on my exercise, and I let stress and emotions get the best of me.

If I'm being honest, I'll tell you that I gained a little bit of weight, but thatnkfully not much. I'm up .2 pounds from where I weighed in two weeks ago. Not that bad considering how many days I took "off" in that time. But still I know I just wasted two weeks where I could have made the scale move down instead.

If I'm being honest, I'll say that we had a cookout tonight, and it was damn hard walking away from that homemade mac and cheese and my sister-in-law's chocolate cake. While the light cake I brought was delicious, it was really hard to say no to the other things I wanted.

If I'm being honest, I'll tell you that this is the constant struggle of weight loss. It gets in your head and you can easily let one excuse turn into 50. And then you feel disappointed because you let yourself down, and then you want to drown that disappointment in ice cream. It's a vicious cycle, people.

My point in all this honesty is not to make you feel sorry for me, it's to show you the reality of this journey. To show everyone else struggling to lose that I struggle too. To show you that there's a lot of fighting between the "before" and "after."

I'm back in the fight this week. Let's go another round, shall we? 


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