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Then and Now: Because the journey isn't over

Yesterday, I saw this picture of me and Kyle at my company Christmas party. Cute, right? Definitely a keeper.



But then, I compared it to a picture of us from Kenlee's first Christmas in 2011 ... and I was shocked.


We've changed a lot over the last three years, most obviously in regard to our weight. At this point, I've lost 105 pounds and Kyle has lost more than 90. As I've said before, taking this journey together has made all the difference. We're proud of the changes we've made and the lifestyle we've adapted. Our appearance has transformed, yes. But we've also transformed our attitudes, our marriage and our family.

It's admittedly hard to see that picture from when we were close to our heaviest/unhealthiest. At first glance, I feel ashamed and embarrassed. How did we live like that? Why didn't we change? I don't recognize those people anymore, and I definitely don't want to be those people anymore.

But as I looked at that old photo a little longer, I realized those people starting back at me are a vital part of who we are today. Without them, we wouldn't understand the struggle. We wouldn't know the gravity of our everyday decisions. We wouldn't be able to truly appreciate what we've accomplished.

You know, I used to wish with all my might that we were never obese, that we never had issues with food or impulses or motivation to exercise. I wished Kyle and I were both naturally thin people with amazing metabolisms and athletic abilities. I wished we'd never had to worry about weight at all!

But that wish will never come true, and I think I'm finally starting to accept who we are ... AND who we used to be. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I believe our journey over the last three years is merely a piece of a much bigger one.

You know, a lot of people post photos for #TransformationTuesday and label them "Before" and "After." I prefer, however, to think of ours as "Then" and "Now" ... because our journey isn't over.
If the last three years have taught me anything, it's that we can handle anything as long as we're together.

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  1. I loved this. I used to wish I had an amazing metabolism, too (ok, still do sometimes) but working out has taught me so much about myself. It's built my confidence, pushed me, shown me new things about myself, given me a healthy outlet, and given me amazing relationships. Plus it's FUN and I truly love it!

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